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Friday, November 6, 2009

生命中的另一个领悟

当我一个人,坐下来的时候,
回想起很多时候,
我都从别人身上得到肯定,认同。。。
我怀恨,别人对我的伤害。。。

但是,
突然间,
上帝给了我一个领悟,
生命中,
很多时候,
我们不能活得快乐,精彩,
是因为很多时候,
我们都尝试做许许多多的东西,
来得到别人的赞赏,别人的肯定。。。
但是,
一个不能够改变的事实,
就是我们不可能得到每一个人的认同。
无论是谁,
父母,老师,领袖,好朋友,会友等。。。
从前的接纳,不代表永远的放肆。
从前的赞赏,不代表永远的鼓励。
人总要长大。。。

那一杀那,
课本的内容突然浮现在我眼前。。。
从他人身上得着肯定,,
那不是小孩子在成长中,
所需要的吗?
但是,
很多时候,
个子长大了,
岁数也慢慢的增加,
为什么还停留在那个阶段呢?

或许很多时候,
在生命中,
遇见许多伤害你的人,
你要感激他,
因为他磨练你的心志。
不要害怕伤害,
不要仇恨他们,
因为是他们,
告诉了我们生命的真相,
世界的破碎,
教会了我们,
我们唯一能够依靠的,
就是全能的上帝。。。
不要再让仇恨,
捆绑我们的思想,
使我们或在痛苦。。。

生命,
是为了上帝而活,
千万不要为了
地位,名分,职位,名誉而活,
因为这样的生活,
会使我们,
永远不满足,
永远喘不过气来!

A wonderful November

I am decided to make a change in my life.
I'm just somehow tired of complaining, nagging and being not satisfied.
I believe changes are necessary.

In God We Trust app in Fabebook has encouraged me a lot today.
"It's time you stop hiding from life, and say yes to the adventure of being alive. Enough of the routine already. Go on, have an adventure, do what you have always wanted deep within your heart. Do what brings you alive, and the universe will open doors when there were only walls."

So yeah, I had some changes in life.


Rainbows Club of Good News Assembly Of God
I'm volunteering myself to help out in this community group on Wednesday that is designated for preschoolers. I am assisting the teacher in their classroom.



AEYC - Association for the Education of Young Children
I've become a member of AEYC on campus. I'll need to volunteer 10 hours, but I joined the bulletin board team, so I need to volunteer for only 8 hours.
I did my first volunteer at Anna Marie's Bingo Night the other day.

Next, for my health's sake, I am now eating oats with marmite for dinner. Also, I will go to the gym with Anh 5 times a week starting from next week.



I also made a pledge.
Saying no to french fries.
Thanks to Joc.


Also, I am decided to live my life, without caring what others have to say about it. I will accept the fact that not everyone will agree with me and vice versa. Therefore, if someone says bad things to me, I will just keep my mouth shut and leave.
Yeah, I can do it~

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Finally...

It has been a busy week for me. I have been doing assignments and reading textbooks. Finally, I have decided to take a night off to sit down and plan for the next run. It would be a tiring run till we finish the semester I guess.

Yes, I thank God that I'm still alive and surviving. However, I need a change. It seems that my life has been a routine but I know God has a better plan than that. Yes, God, continue to guide me, help me understand what You want me to do in my life.

Thinking of Winter Break, it would be a boring and freezing cold time. Sob... Any suggestion? Air tickets and hotels are way above my budget. I'll definitely use that time to learn more Japanese, getting ready for JPN101 in Fall 2010.

I hope God will plan something for me, like how my Thanksgiving break is well-planned. On Thursday night, I would spend a night for dinner with Sue Bayerl's family. Then, on Friday evening, Lois would bring me to Little Falls and spend some time with her and Dick. On Saturday, we'll bake cookies and we'll go church on Sunday. There I can meet Mark and Mariah. HAPPY~~~~

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Halloween vs. the Five Solas

Today, everyone celebrates Halloween. It originated from ancient Celtic Samhain festival, where it is believed that on this day, the boundary between the living and the dead dissolved.

However, to me, Halloween is a multimillion-dollar industry for retailers of all sorts. Costumes, candies and decorations cost a big sum of money. In the U.S., Halloween has been commercialized, like other celebrations. People fork out a lot to buy a costume which they will probably wear it ONCE AND FOR ALL.

After reading Our Daily Journey With God, I know something which is more significant on October 13. It is a Reformation Day. In 1517, Martin Luther nails his 95 Theses to the door of a church in Germany. His writings sparked the Reformation Movement throughout Europe. He and the other reformers lifted up five solas that they defined as essentials of Christian belief and practice: sola Scriptura (by Scriptures alone), sola fida (by faith alone), sola gratia (by grace alone), solus Christus (by Christ alone), and soli Deo gloria (by glory to God alone).

The reformers reiterated what Paul wrote 15 centuries earlier:
• Sola Scriptura. “All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives. . . . God uses it to prepare and equip his people to do every good work” (2 Timothy 3:16-17).
• Sola fida, sola gracia, solus Christus, and soli Deo gloria. The holy Scriptures “have given you the wisdom to receive the salvation that comes by trusting in Christ Jesus” (v.15). We are justified (made right with God) by grace (undeserved favor) through faith, without need for good works (Ephesians 2:8-9); for Christ is the only mediator between God and man (1 Timothy 2:5). And this is all for God’s glory alone.

This October 31, let’s reaffirm the five solas of the Christian faith and think about what they mean for us (v.14).

My prayer for the day is, Yes God, Restore the five solas in me once again.

Friday, October 30, 2009

A lesson from a Bamboo tree.

There's a Chinese bamboo tree that doesn't grow at all for the first four years. It just develops a massive root structure while the bulb barely shows; in the fifth year, it grows eighty feet. Many things in life are like that bamboo tree. You may not see any initial evidence of what you are about, but if you persist, eventually a tremendous harvest will result.
- Ming-Chi - (My CFS major Advisor)
Keep Watering Your Bamboo Tree - Eric Aronson -
We can work for weeks, months and even years on our dream with no visible signs of progress and then, all of the sudden, things take off.
One of the best examples that I witness is the growth of FGA CYC, from 50 to 500. Nobody noticed the growth in the first few years, but in the recent month, it's almost as if you can actually see the tree growing before your very eyes.
And yes, I agree with a blogger, Don Miller who said, "Yet, all of this requires one thing - faith. The growers of the Chinese bamboo tree have faith that if they keep watering and fertilizing the ground, the tree will break through."
Again, the FGA CYC pioneers have faith in God and keep investing time and effort in the ministry and today, FGA CYC breaks through.
However, we have faith in God for growing our church, what about our dreams, our plans and every piece of our lives?
This is the hard part for most of us, or at least me. We get so excited and enthusiatic about the idea that's been planted inside of us that we simply can't wait for it to blossom. Therefore, within days or weeks of the initial planting, we become discouraged and begin to second guess ourselves.
"Sometimes, in our doubt, we dig up our seed and plant it elsewhere, in hopes that it will quickly rise in more fertile ground." Don Miller.
I see this happens in my surrounding, and at times in myself too.
I have seen people who try changing their "dreams", in the pursuit of greener pastures.
More often than not, these people are greatly disappointed when their "dreams" doesn't grow any faster in the new location.
Other times, we will water the ground for a time but then, quickly become discouraged and fed up. We start to wonder if it's worth all of the effort. I myself had gone through this kind of situation too.
This is particularly true when we see their neighbors having success with other trees. They start to think, "What am I doing trying to grow a bamboo tree? If I had planted a lemon or orange or any other tree, I'd have a few fruits by now."
This is when we walk away from their dream in exchange for a "sure thing."
Sadly, being short-sightedly, what we fail to realize is that pursuing our dream is a sure thing if we just don't give up. The only time we fail is when we quit trying.
Therefore, as long as we keep watering and fertilizing our dream, it will bear fruit some day.
The time taken may be weeks, or months or even years. However, when the roots eventually take hold, our tree will grow. And when it grows, it is strong than any other tree.
Yes, indeed getting a teaching license requires extra watering and fertilizing; taking a long time than others but I am willing to HOLD ON to it. I am sure the fruits that will be born are gonna be great!

Monday, October 26, 2009

渴慕神

来了美国已经两个月,
回头一看,
发现自己一直在挣扎,
却不知所措。。。
很累,很破碎,
却不知告诉谁。。。
甚至觉得回马来西亚是一个很可怕的事情。。。
害怕无法活出爱神的榜样。。。
害怕绊倒弟兄姐妹。。。

美国,
给我许多的自由,
给我许多的资源,
也带给了我许多的引诱。

慢慢地,
我已经掉入了
自我中心,
自私,
冷淡,
后退,
宗教徒的生活。。。
生命的起伏非常的大。。。
开始只想成为一个礼拜徒。。。
每逢星期日,
主日的信息触摸到我心,
但回到真实的世界,
诱惑好像成为了我的“良伴”。。。
开始没有灵修,
禁食也没有祷告,
听网上信息好像只是为了过时间。。。
偶尔教会朋友的经文鼓励我,
但那个影响力很快就消失了。。。

内心的挣扎非常的大,
我知道问题的存在,
但一而再,
再而三的掉入陷阱。。。

我埋怨,
我开始陷入
“我觉得神不再真实”的地步。。。
我怀疑,
我觉得上帝的名字在我生活中,
只是一个口号。。。
我不相信,
美国是上帝要我经历他的地方。。。
我不再渴慕
经历他更多。。。
别人超自然的经历,
对我来说,
好像成为了童话故事。
我不再相信现在的教会是上帝要我扎根的。。。
我一直寻找理由,
我开始诬赖环境,
我开始讨厌自己,
逃避许许多多的问题,
我很累,
很累。。。

但上帝,
是真实的,
是可靠的。。。

神,
谢谢你,
谢谢你给我学习了很多宝贵的功课。。。
在患难中,
上帝彰显他的荣耀。。。
在困苦中,
上帝为我开道路。。。

谢谢你,不曾放弃我。

虽然我很不体贴上帝的心意在我生命中,
上帝不曾放弃我。。。
上帝透过
每一个的经历,
每一个的难关,
每一个的破碎,
每一个的叛逆,
塑造我的生命。。。

上帝透过我的
疑问,
悔改,
渴慕,
谦卑,
改变了我。。。

上帝了解我内心的苦楚,
上帝回应了我的呼求。。。

透过我的愿意,
上帝再次显明他的旨意,
再次地让我知道,
我是多么的不成熟,
我是多么地需要他。。。

透过营会和一位火热的基督徒同房,
她的生命,
再次地眺望我,
再次地让我明白,
我的心要继续为上帝而火热,
不要因为环境的改变,
而冷淡后退,
反而要继续努力前进,
尽量善用所拥有的机会,
更多地经历上帝。。。

在营会里,
圣灵提醒我要悔改。
我愿意,
但我开始有疑问,
现在的教会适合我吗?

星期天,
上帝再次地肯定我。。。
我告诉上帝,
我开始不知道这教会是否是神所预备的,
我要印证,
我要牧师为我祷告。。。
我怀疑,
甚至觉得我不需要教会。。。
因为觉得圣灵没有同在。
参加了那么多次的聚会,
都不曾有呼召,
但今天,
牧师在信息前,
有一个特别的呼召,
他说,
上帝要我们休息,
要我们知道他是神。
他说,
有一些人,
现在处于离开上帝的光景,
再开一扇门,
那人就离开上帝了。
如果你是这样的人,
来到台前,
上帝是真实的。。。

那时,
我很挣扎,
我不敢出去。。。
牧师就继续地祷告,
他说,
上帝给他内心有一个感觉,
还有一些人,
或许只是一个人,
他很需要上帝的触摸,
他已经很久没有经历神了,
如果是你的话,
请来到台前。
不要害怕,
这个是一个神圣的时刻,
是你和上帝的时间。

我去到台前,
屈膝在上帝的面前,
圣灵就充满我,
泪水就涌流。。。
那杀那,
上帝印证了他是昨日,今日的神。
离开马来西亚后,
我不曾那么深的经历上帝。。。
我不断地方言祷告,
上帝的安慰就在我身上。
过后,
突然间牧师过来为我祷告,
他说,
上帝要医治你。。。
上帝要恢复你和他的关系,
上帝爱你,
不要放弃。。。

过后的信息,
也不断地眺望我,
我相信在这时刻,
或许我没有服侍,
我相信上帝会为我开路。。。
我很惊讶的就是,
既然在主日通告里,
他们在寻找服侍儿童教会同工,
就是妈妈问我我是否在那部门服侍。。。
无论如何,
我会继续祷告,
继续寻求。。。
牧师也说到,
我们不应该“强逼”上帝的手,
上帝的时间是最完美的。
有时候,
上帝要我们成长,
让上帝来塑造我们的生命,
成为他何用的器皿。


耶 利 米 書 12:5
5 耶 和 华 说 : 你 若 与 步 行 的 人 同 跑 , 尚 且 觉 累 , 怎 能 与 马 赛 跑 呢 ? 你 在 平 安 之 地 , 虽 然 安 稳 , 在 约 但 河 边 的 丛 林 要 怎 样 行 呢 ?

上帝让我学习了一个功课,
若是我自己在这里无法前进,
上帝要如何大大的使用我呢?

我的祷告是,
上帝,
继续地帮助我,
改变我,
塑造我,
练精我,
让我成为你所使用的。。。
帮助我在
没有人监督,
没有掌声,
没有很强的教会
我愿意塑造很强的属灵气氛,
继续的渴慕神。

Sunday, October 25, 2009

I cried

Oct 24 09 is the 5th Anniversary of FGA CYC.
I wanted to call Wei Yi Jie but there was no signal in Deerwood.

Jonathan Chin sent me the video. It took about 30mins to receive it but it worths waiting.

I watched the video alone and I cried out. Many past memories were so vivid.

I miss my cell groups, I miss my friends, I miss my leaders and most of all, I miss the spiritual atmosphere of the House of God.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Fall Break is here

To me, Fall Break has started even though I still have another class later at 3pm.

After I'm done with class, I'm gonna have mee siam at Kakak's place.

Then, gotta get back to work again before departing for Fall Retreat - Deerwood.

To do list before departure& after retreat:
1) CFS 220 presentation slides
2) SW 195 paper
3) CFS 220 family paper
4) CFS 220 exam preparation

Wow... Suddenly it seems that CFS 220 would be my focus this week huh?

Good news before the 1/2 of semester ends, I have finally transferred as pre-early childhood education major and then my MGMT 301 can use as a substitution for general education. YAHOO!!!!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

A message from "In God We Trust"

Decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Never the same AGAIN.

As I sit down alone today to plan my schedule, I begin to change my perspective on a lot of things. Things that I used to hold on to BADLY is now seen as nothing.

Yes, it's not easy to survive alone, but this is the only time you can actually be with yourself and explore the world. After this "golden age", you'll have to get to your career and family. Also, psychology theory states that human will have reminiscence bump whereby people tend to remember events that happen between their 15-30 years of age. 15 precious years in life. I've passed almost 4 3/4 years, about 10 1/4 more to go. Therefore, I choose to spend it wisely, most of all, meaningfully.

I start to regret for not picking up other languages or go for exchange program in the past. However, I know there's no use crying over a spilt milk. Therefore, I would start now. I'll learn Japanese and use it as often as possible since the environment here in U.S. do provide me the opportunity. Also, if can, I would like to go for exchange to Japan for 6 weeks to join the intensive Japanese class as well as cultural exposure.

Also, I would take every single opportunity to explore the world, and also get to know the world more. I don't want to just hide myself in my "own" world and comfort zone. I want to walk out and EXPLORE!

Friday, October 16, 2009

我还是我吗?

来了这里,已经两个月了。。。
生活习惯都不一样了。。。
许许多多的东西在我脑海中。。。
伤心,难过,痛苦,悲哀,一一都经历过。。。
从这负面的思想好像快走出来了,
但是,
为什么在这时候,
又有问题出现?
当然,我不是说生命不会面对问题,
但是,
为什么本来可以好好过的生活,
却出现了这样的问题呢?

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I've started something interesting

I'll start learning a new language.

Another Busy period till Fall Break

This week supposed to be a relax week but it turns out to be another busy time.
Since it started to snow, I get tired easily and thus sleepy always. Also, I get hungry very fast.

Anyway, I've decided to finish up my work in advanced for this so that I have more time to get outdoor. I'm just tired of being indoor.

Oct 13 - Finish editing CFS Issue paper
Oct 14 - Finish revision for PSY 250 Cognitive Psy
Oct 15 - Start SW 195 Social Welfare Revision ; PSY 441 Child Psy Presentation meeting ; ChiAlpha
Oct 16 - Submit CFS Issue paper; Appointment w/ Dr. Leslie ; PSY 250 test ; Complete PSY 250 Lab 2; Women Conference XA
Oct 17 - Women Conference ; Malaysian Night
Oct 18 - Church ; Hang out w/ Anh ; start CFS family paper
Oct 19 - Revision for SW 195
Oct 20 - PSY 441 Presentation ; SW 195 Quiz
Oct 21 - Start Revision for CFS 220 Introduction to Parent-Child Relations; Continue CFS family paper
Oct 22 - Revision for CFS 220; Leave for Fall Retreat
Oct 22; 23 - Fall Retreat
Oct 24 - Back from Retreat
Oct 25 - Church; Revision for CFS 220

God, I lay my schedule before You, guide me, give me the strength.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

I miss the Fall Season

These were taken by S.K. before the snow came at night.











More snow